EMOTION AS POWER:
The REAL story about your EMPATHIC PERSONAL POWERS
EMOTION AS POWER:
The REAL story about your EMPATHIC PERSONAL POWERS
When I first heard that it was POWER which was being worked with, in shamanic practice, I was internally confused because through my life experiences, POWER had become a dirty word.
In my efforts to forgive this terrible affliction called POWER, and to try to understand more about it, I was always drawn in mystery, like so many of us intuition-based-creators, to the phrase “Your Emotions Are Your Power”.
But what did that really mean?
My emotions were usually the most difficult ‘friends’ I had ever had. [I had been actively befriending my emotions for years before I finally succumbed to accepting my interest in core-shamanism.]
How could these states of being, these invisible forces, that seem to need such delicate introspection from me, even be related to my power, let alone, ‘be’ my power?
My emotions had been a huge source of what made it impossible for me to go with the grain, to conform.
And that itself caused pain, loneliness, and shame, especially since I had my share of situations of loosing out on projects / communities / spaces of value [some which I had even built myself!], due to at one point not being able to conform with a group level of processing emotion, and not having time, space, resources to be able to go into explaining to myself or others where mine came from. [ ie: that combo we know as ‘misunderstood power’, ‘shadow contracts’ and ‘shifting resonance’].
Couple that with many confusing experiences of judgement: ‘greedy’ to want a voice, ‘too bold’, 'too proud’, 'too driven’, ‘too much’, ‘too whatever’....
It is more than enough to send a highly intuitive person, to a place of absolute confusion and rejection of her power!
[For intuitive beings, ‘confusion’ means : without ground, without centre, without connection, without clarity. That is one of the worst places we can be. I will write more on the importance of grounding for intuitive beings, later...]
OUR COLLECTIVE EXPERIENCES OF POWER :
Our first experiences of POWER - if you are like me - was unfortunately either of the overload of power within “other”, or the perspective of power from being one of the disempowered!
We might have learnt through these early experiences that there is only ‘so much’ power to go around.
And..... if we were to want power for ourselves, not only was this a selfish act, but we would have to somehow take it from someone else in order to acquire it.
So, someone else would miss out, if we were to want our own power.
And who with a heart, would want that, for anyone?
Being a ‘good’, polite and kind human, you might have found yourself in many situations of your life unconsciously saying to others:
“No, no, you have the power. I couldn’t possibly take it from you.”
We say that with our energy resonances, either out of not feeling worthy, or not wanting someone else to suffer.
[ That’s the scarcity mindset, or “lack matrix”, that there is a limited amount of resources to go around.
It’s basically a reductive paradigm that is founded on fear and shame, and not where we are heading, anymore, my friend!
We are headed into expansion! ]
We also learn - mostly deeply within our yin, receptive energy centres - that power is NOT TO BE TRUSTED!
Especially our own Power.
We are taught to fear our own power, be ashamed of it.
And to be ashamed of wanting it in first place. [ How DARE you! ]
We can spend our entire existence being denied awareness that we even own inherent power.
At some inevitable point, though, through the natural progression of our own Eros/Desire - [usually in teenage years] we do have a surge through the body and psyche to go our own way - to individuate.
Our body naturally expresses itself as an individual.
In so many cases, at this age, we are thwarted away from individuality in these precious moments of natural development.
We are given the impression that our Eros, our Desire, our sexuality, our creativity, is the ‘evil’ substance which so commonly for many before us has been shifted into the shadows, and labelled incorrectly as manipulation, control, greed.
..... domineering, power hungry, bossy, bitch ... DEMONESS! ...
[In integrating your power, you can start to take these labels on as transitory compliments in the process of loving your full Self, dark and light, but more on that later...]
This is still all only part of the story of power.
A one sided story of power, at that.
THE REAL STORY ABOUT POWER:
Power itself is neither ‘good’ nor ‘bad’.
‘Good’ and ‘bad’ are human judgements, and power has no need for such trivial and futile perspectives!
Power is a force of energy.
Catalysed, intentionalised energy.
Power, is energy in motion, and energy within relation.
It is only in the forms of a bias-overload, of power - when there is too much in one place and not enough in another, that we form our collective understandings of the negative connotations of power.
In this age - considering the Power imbalances that we are aware of within in-transparent capitalist and anthropomorphic structures, which seem to be grossly tilted to favour the already privileged, [and seem to be tilting to converge and consume the now ‘trendy’ or ‘sellable’, as commodities within that same system -> look out, POC creators], no wonder the word Power got a bad reputation for us.
Seeing as most of us ONLY have the human experience of knowing a world-wide system in bias, of course we struggle with visioning the concept of Power as also being an incredibly positive image.
But there IS 100% positive way to work with the concept of power and the beginning of this comes with trusting yourself, and trusting that within you, is a deeper connection to a source entity that is ultimately ONE, ultimately in balance, bigger, infinite and outside of any other system that we are experiencing here on the human level.
And within this deep connection to ONEness, to the larger, longer and deeper timeline at play, we can look at our time on this earth and within this system as one of ‘missions’.
Lets imagine for a moment, without wanting to simplify too much:
As an empathic human creator, If you were in a complete state of support, were at peace with yourself, you felt loved, lovable, and you felt appreciated, had access to everything that you needed financially and emotionally, and your communication in your relationships was safe and filled with compassion and open vulnerability - would you create something that goes on to take-from, syphon, or harm other people, or would you be creating something that aims to bring people more health, love and joy?
YES to the latter!
As a compassionate human creator: If you had managed to crack the code for your own happiness, your own autonomy, and had managed to allow yourself to heal, feel and create from your real joy, and excitement, would you be emanating positive power from your being and spreading that positive power into the world and into the energy fields of others?
As an Intuitive Feeler: If you had managed to forgive all the judgements that had come onto your core-emotions in the past, move through the difficult energy and develop a deeper understanding of your own truth, would you be able to handle criticism, apologise and adapt if you had realised your ways of being had inadvertently put someone else in harm or in unwanted invisibility, provided they communicate their needs in a non-violent way?
Of course these actions are easier said than done, they are a process which we fluidly coast in and out of through continuing deep healing and forgiveness, allowing ourselves to actually feel the pain of what having the alternative situations in our lives has meant.
But our deep emotions all surrounding the painfulness of our own stories are here to fortify us in the future - so when we access that personal power for ourselves we will be able to WIELD IT, within networks, in a way for the highest good of all. [If you want to know more about wielding power for womyn, but without as much spiritual content as I am into - check the work of Kasia Urbaniak. I love Kasia’s vision.]
SO : YOUR DESIRE FOR YOUR OWN POWER, IS INHERENTLY GOOD.
We cannot even truly imagine what the absolute positive use of our own power would be, because [well, for one absolutes do not exist] but for two: our whole realities are SO entrenched in fear of it - to fathom the healed empaths of our world’s true potential would be nothing short of mind blowing.
AHA! SAY, WHAT?
YOUR DESIRE FOR YOUR OWN POWER IS INHERENTLY GOOD!?
YES. YOUR DESIRE FOR YOUR OWN POWER, IS INHERENTLY LIFE AFFIRMING:
So to want your own personal power, is to want others to have access to their own personal power?
So it is not a dubious act anymore to want your power and agency and individuality -> it is a creative and beautiful act of giving?
YOUR POWER AS DUTY, SERVICE, AND A GIFT TO COMMUNITY:
In the right way, in the right constellations, access to personal power *in flow* is your DUTY to yourself - to your Soul.
On the deeper level, if we think about your Soul’s code* [Ref: The Soul’s Code, J.Hillman] as being instrumentally placed here within this time and space, for evolution and the growth of consciousness as a whole, life on a collective level is always geared to you getting access to your personal power.
And in this way, your access to your personal power from your authentic emotions can be seen as an act of SERVICE.
Whatever you are to create from your heart will be a gift to society, in this lens.
So creating your art, and honing your message is a service to a community.
We are all in service to our communities.
If you UNLEASH and can LIVE your DESIRE, you are SOWING A SEED into the collective.
POWER and DESIRE go hand in hand,
and POWER and EMOTION go hand in hand.
And getting to my point….
The pathway to accessing your Power is hidden inside all of your core EMOTIONS.
[Secondary emotions or ‘cover-up-emotions’ are all messengers too.]
It is focused and driven energy, that is “lit up” through our personal relational system, which travels through our bodies.
The most clarifying POWER about accessing your authenticity and soul mission you will probably find within core Anger.
THE POWER OF CORE ANGER, BOUNDARIES:
Of course, we can live with the power of anger and fear but we do run the risk of generating harmful sickness and stress within our bodies from keeping negative emotions in.
Also, in how we act from these emotions determines if Power flows towards us or away from us.
REACTING AND RESPONDING:
Reacting (as opposed to responding) from emotions generally dissipates our personal power, because reacting usually does not give enough time to focus on compassionate intentions for our own highest good or for the highest good of anyone involved.
Reacting is usually based on when we are in the Lack Matrix, under the core belief that we are powerless.
We react, out of grabbing fast for something outside of ourselves, or we react out of severe actions of protection - perceiving a threat outside of us - ie: we recognise ‘the outer catalyst’ to have more power than ‘our inner catalyst’, and we deny ourselves our own agency.
We have a few choices with how to respond to our emotions - we can be righteously upheld in our old beliefs, where we will probably keep doing the same things, attract most probably the same situations and will alway needing to fight the same fight. [Habits and energetic ‘paper-doll’ patterning. Ref: “Energetic Boundaries”, by Cyndi Dale.]
Or, we can dig deep inside that rage and fear and shame and juicy emotion - even dig deep inside what helps you feel joy and makes you laugh tears of hilariousness....
and find a pathway for this to ignite more DESIRE and EXCITEMENT.
In this way - it is the HYPER SENSITIVE FOLKS - the one’s who feel the most emotional content from the collective, who, if they slow down and take their time, have the biggest capacity to build and access power like this.
and POWER and EMOTION go hand in hand.
IT IS THE HYPER SENSITIVE AMONGST US, THE EMPATHS*, THAT HAVE THE MOST POWER TO GAIN FROM TAPPING DEEPLY INTO EMOTIONS.
BECAUSE EMOTIONS ARE OUR DEEPEST PLAYGROUND.
[Yes, for empathic humans, even if we suffer them, we do still find hard emotions ‘enjoyable’ or ‘worthwhile’ due to the fact that we can recognise their true value!]
** ALL HUMANS HAVE THE CAPACITY TO BE “EMPATHS”, PS. IN MY OPINION, IT JUST DEPENDS ON ACTIVATION, AND HOW EACH PERSON CHOOSES TO HANDLE/NAME/RECOGNISE THAT...